This is a quiet space for the days that feel heavy, unclear, or in-between.
If you’re carrying something you can’t quite name, you’re not alone.
Latest Reflections
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Somewhere between Rest and Responsibility
Read more: Somewhere between Rest and ResponsibilityHow am I?How do I feel? I do not know how to answer those questions lately. I am not exactly sad. I am not exactly happy either. Maybe I am somewhere close to happiness, but not fully there. I am functioning. I get through the day. I answer messages, finish…
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One Small Step at a Time
Read more: One Small Step at a TimeI woke up today already feeling behind. Not in a dramatic, everything-is-falling-apart kind of way—just a quiet, steady sense that I didn’t quite know where to begin. I had already been awake for a while. I ate breakfast. I sent a few work messages. On the surface, the day had…
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Finding a Way to Begin
Read more: Finding a Way to BeginI had been awake for more than two hours, and still, I hadn’t really started my day. I knew there were things waiting for me—real responsibilities I couldn’t ignore. A paper I needed to review. Students who had scheduled consultations with me. A handbook I needed to revisit so I…
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About Me
Read more: About MeI didn’t start this blog because I had everything figured out.I started it because I didn’t. There have been days when my thoughts felt too heavy to carry quietly. Days when even simple things—getting up, walking around, making conversation—took more effort than they should. And in those moments, I found…
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Still Here (Even When I Don’t Want to Be)
Read more: Still Here (Even When I Don’t Want to Be)I am writing this from a hospital bed. A few days ago, I tried to end my life. I overdosed, and I am still here. That fact alone feels complicated—like something I don’t fully know how to hold. Part of me feels like a failure for not succeeding. That thought…
Between Heavy Days 